.-.

Ugh I'm not getting enough sleep...
as for it to matters

School is a pain
My social life is a freaking puzzle I'm not good at solving
Did I mention school was a pain? Yeah

So far now I'm only pleased/happy when I'm at drawing class or in front of a shiny screen. Main reason of why I haven't slept well in 4 days now XD

Not to mention I getting more paranoia and delusion of persecution (wow rhyme) but I've always had that on a low level...
-turns-
Nope no one is behind me >>

I'm like dealing with my mind again if I'm in the right career or not :/
But if I mention that in my house I'm so dead

...
I need so badly to get out
But my bike is...well not available X_x

Well, there are a few things that make me feel, well, good.
For example that there's someone that see me as a role model

Trust me my first impression was "what the hell?" but then I realized good things about it.

Yeah people, as a matter of fact I did get touch by it T^T

Someone wants to be like me.
So I have to be a better person so I can give the right example.
xD I feel so happy because I finally have a mini me!!
Also that I'm the mini-me of someone that has an awesome fanfic XD

3 things tag

Pondría esto en mi DA pero ya puse de mi aniversario ^^; :3 gracias Deadkennedy14 por dejarme usarlo sin avisarXD
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Aki
2. Ike
3. Dork [that goes only on roleplay]

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Aki-yaoi
2. Aki-senpai
3. darkykimanoi [uuuu old]

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Talk with Roy
2. Update my journal
3. Turn off the fan?

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: [pwne'd XD]
1. My intelligence
2. My randomness
3. My imagination

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My size
2. My art [I need to work it more]
3. My fanfics [not good enough]

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
1. Veracruz
2. Mexico
3. America

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Mirrors
2. Eternal solitude
3. Betrayal

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. My sword charm
2. Pajama pants XD [I'm just going to get a shower]
3. A shirt

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Computer
2. Internet
3. Skype [XD]

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Notebook
2. Pencil
3. Eraser

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. Simple Plan
2. The Fray
3. Maroon 5

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Read yaoi Lemons
2. Be in a yaoi roleplay
3. Kill people on smash

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. How to save a life [The Fray] [Yeah I still don't get tired of it]
2. Welcome to my Life [Simple Plan]
3. Teardrops on my Guitar [Taylor Swift]

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Travel
2. Go sky diving
3. To get a shot from a gun [-shrugs- I mean it]

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET
1. To quiet myself when I need to talk
2. Smile when I shouldn't smile
3. Being at a career where my innocence [or lack of] and dignity is about to wreck

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Love
2. Humour
3. Support

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD: [To the world? I doubt it, but to some people yeah]
1. My shoulder so they can cry
2. My ears so I can hear their problems
3. My smile to tell them everything it's going to be okay

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. I'm publishing a book
2. I'm so improving my art skills
3. I'm happy [what?]

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Tall
2. Uhm...
3. I'm not that good with physical things ^^;

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Funny
2. Cute
3. ...Funny again xD

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Dance [the broom is better than me!]
2. Think in spanish [that's weird XD and it's my language]
3. Stop roleplaying =D

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. I don't
2. remember anything
3. from my past

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. Plushies [smash plushies =D]
2. A good book
3. A doujinshi! yaoi doujinshi

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writting
2. Drawing
3. Spacing out

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Ride my bike
2. Kill people in smash
3. Improve my skills

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: [that hurts]
1. C.S.I.
2. A writer
3. A NeeT [watch Welcome to the NHK for that XD]

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Anywhere it's fine
2. Canada xD
3. OUT OF MY HOUSE IS OK!

THREE CARTOON (anime and videogame xD) CHARACTERS:
1. Ike
2. Kakashi
3. Ichigo [Bleach]

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Ike [XD]
2. Drew
3. Ranulff

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Mia
2. Elincia
3. Lyn [I've been really addicted to FE]

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Publish my book
2. Go skydiving
3. Save someone

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY
1. -shrugs-
2. They are going to steal it so
3. I don't complain XD

Personality

-sigh-
I was checking out my number according to the enneagram: I'm 5 The investigator.
Mostly a five with a four-wing a.k.a "The iconoclast" [just like Tim Burton XD]

Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way.

Thus, for their own security and self-esteem, Fives need to have at least one area in which they have a degree of expertise that will allow them to feel capable and connected with the world. Fives think, “I am going to find something that I can do really well, and then I will be able to meet the challenges of life. But I can’t have other things distracting me or getting in the way.”

Key Motivations: Want to possess knowledge, to understand the environment, to have everything figured out as a way of defending the self from threats from the environment.

• Basic Fear: Being useless, helpless, or incapable
• Basic Desire: To be capable and competent

Coping strategy: Typically, Fives were either neglected or intruded upon in early life, and so coped by withdrawing into themselves and creating boundaries to protect inner resources and prevent intrusive emotional and energetic demands.

Fives tend to be knowledgeable, emotionally detached, analytical, and objective observers.

Strengths: Fives are often objective, calm in a crisis, knowledgeable, and analytical.

Challenges: Fives may be too emotionally detached, and their sense of inner lack often leads to withdrawing from others, creating excessive boundaries, and to the illusion that energy is limited and must be (over)protected.

Fives believe they don't have the ability to do things as well as the rest [so true]

Right now I'm on level 5:
Level 5: Increasingly detached as they become involved with complicated ideas or imaginary worlds. Become preoccupied with their visions and interpretations rather than reality. Are fascinated by off-beat, esoteric subjects, even those involving dark and disturbing elements. Detached from the practical world, a "disembodied mind," although high-strung and intense.

In a nutshell: Most of my friends are either 4, 7 or 9 . . .
I'm the only 5 I know! I'm the lonest one XD

Oh and also, according to the 4 temperaments I'm the melancholic:

Melancholic is the personality of an individual characterized by black bile; a person who was a thoughtful ponderer had a melancholic disposition. Often very kind and considerate, melancholics can be highly creative - as in poetry and art - but also can become overly pre-occupied with the tragedy and cruelty in the world, thus becoming depressed. The temperament is associated with the season of fall/autumn (dry and cold) and the element earth [Great, I always thought I was air XD]. A melancholic is also often a perfectionist, being very particular about what they want and how they want it in some cases. This often results in being unsatisfied with one's own artistic or creative works and always pointing out to themselves what could and should be improved.

This temperament describes the depressed phase of a bipolar disorder..

There is no bodily fluid corresponding to black bile; the medulla of the adrenal glands, which decomposes very rapidly after death, can be associated with it

Common points of melancholic:
Sensitive to anguish of others [true]
Analytical [true]
Deep thinker [true]
Self-introspective [sort of true]
Artistic or musical [yeah we could say that]
Self-sacrificing [unfortunately true]
Poetic and philosophical [sort of ^^;]
Appreciates beauty [we could say that]
Perfectionist with high standards [not at all]
Detail conscious [huh...]
Neat and tidy [XD NOO]
Organized [nope]
Sees the problem [yeah]
Seeks creative solutions [sort of]
Must finish what is started [yeah, even though I'm a procrastinator]
Content to stay behind the scenes [definetely]
Likes charts, numbers, and lists [yeah XD]
Cautious to make friends [Indeed]
Will listen to complaints [Always]
Problem solver for others [For others and not for me]
Moved to tears with compassion [...]
Tries not to raise attention [yep]
Serious [wow you know me]
Conscientious [huh..]
Studious [yeah -__-]
Reflective [.-.]
Not practical--Dreamer [XD yeah]
Self-centered [sometimes]
Pessimistic [sometimes]
Moody [hehe]
Revengeful [well..]
Skeptical [not at all]

Is it just me or I'm one of the most weird/lone types of personalities ever?

Oh well... right now I'm going to have a deep, serious self-therapy with myself......
a.k.a trying to stop thinking about others and start to think about myself for a beginning....
-___-||| It's surely going to hurt.
Oh well...

How to Save a Life

How To Save A Life :

Step one you say we need to talk He walks you say sit down it's just a talk He smiles politely back at you You stare politely right on through Some sort of window to your right As he goes left and you stay right Between the lines of fear and blame You begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness And I would have stayed up with you all night Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best Cause after all you do know best Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence Lay down a list of what is wrong The things you've told him all along And pray to God he hears you And pray to God he hears you

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong,
I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life
How to save a life

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

CHORUS: Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

"How to save a life" by The Fray
I listened this first time on Scrubs and then found a FMA AMV T^T

Gay marriage

Took this from a DA account ^^;: sorry I forgot where, my apologizes.
Well this is important, first of all, just because I support gay marriage doesn't mean I am; so stop bugging me:

Irony is a form of expression in which an implicit meaning is concealed or contradicted by the explicit meaning of the expression. Irony involves the perception that things are not what they are said to be or what they seem.

Socratic irony is feigning ignorance in order to expose the weakness of another's position.

That said, let's move on to:

50 Best reasons Gay Marriage is wrong!

1. Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, birth control and air conditioning.

2. Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4. Marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all: women are property, matches are arranged in childhood, blacks can't marry whites, Catholics can't marry Jews, divorce is illegal, and adultery is punishable by death

5. Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6. Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. If we look to the word of God, His punishment for sexual immorality is equal to that of murder. Therefore, teaching kids to tolerate homosexuality is equal to teaching them to tolerate murder.

10. Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy (insurance, government, tourism, banking, retail, education, and social services), suburban malls, or longer life spans.

12. Gay marriage should be decided by people not the courts, because the majority-elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of the minorities.

13. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better, because a “seperate but equal” institution is always constitutional. Seperate schools for African-Americans worked just as well as seperate marriages for gays and lesbians will.

14. There is no separation between religious marriage and legal marriage, because there is no separation of church and state.

15. Devout, faithful Anglicans should never accept same-sex marriage, because it is an affront to the traditional family values upheld by Henry VIII and his wife, Catherine of Aragon, and his wife, Anne Boleyn, and his wife, Jane Seymour, and his wife, Anne of Cleves, and his wife, Catherine Howard, and his wife, Catherine Parr. They all knew the meaning of marriage and none of them lost their heads over the matter.

16. Married gay people will encourage others to be gay, in a way that unmarried gay people do not.

17. Legalizing gay marriage will lead to legalizing dog marriage. This can be inferred from the history of other political initiatives for gender equality. For example, when American women got the right to vote in 1920, it led to terriers voting in 1925, and when Title IX was passed in 1972 to prevent sex discrimination in any federally-funded school, resulting in the creation of athletic opportunities for girls, it led to Bichon Frises on the basketball court during the Reagan administration.

18. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to legislative change in general, which could possibly include the legalization of polygamy, incest, medical marijuana, and unmuzzled pit bulls. Because we don’t know what might come down the next slippery slope, we should never change any law.

19. Legal marriage will inspire gays to mimic straight traditions, such as spiritual commitment ceremonies and celebratory parties, which is currently impermissible for them to do and which they have never done before.

20. Marriage is designed to protect the well-being of children. Gay people do not need marriage because they never have children from prior relationships, artificial insemination, surrogacy, or adoption.

21. Civil unions are a good option because "separate but equal" institutions are always constitutional. In fact, compared with marriage, civil unions are so attractive that straight people are calling dibs on them.

22. A man should not be able to marry whomever a woman can marry, and a woman should not be able to marry whomever a man can marry, because in this country we do not believe in gender equality.

23. If gays marry, some of straight people's tax dollars would end up supporting families whose structure they may find morally objectionable. Clearly, it is more just to continue taking gay people's tax dollars to support straight families, who are going to heaven regardless of what anyone else thinks of them.

24. Gays should hold off on the marriage question until society is more accepting of them, because they are not part of society.

25. The people's voice must be heard on this issue. Therefore, we must have a vote on a federal constitutional amendment to ban same-sex marriage, because we can't think of any other way to discuss the issue.

26. Each state should decide for itself whether gay marriage will be recognized, because there is no "full faith and credit" clause that requires states to recognize each other's institutions.

27. Gay marriage attempts to replace natural heterosexual instinct with a cultural institution. Morality demands that we subordinate institutionalized commitment to raw, unfettered, biological impulse.

28. Gay marriages could very well suffer maladies like domestic violence and substance abuse. That's why we invented the Quality Control department to pre-approve the righteousness of all marriage applicants.

29. Those who support gay marriage aim to overthrow the dominant culture, as evidenced by their enthusiasm to participate in it.

30. If the state performs gay marriages, Christians might become more liberal and divide into more mutually opposed parties. Since the government is an arm of the church and is responsible for keeping the peace in Christian leadership councils, it should not get involved with gay marriage.

31. After gay marriage was legalized in Scandinavian countries in 2004, more heterosexual couples realized they wanted to live together and bear children without marrying first. Banning gay marriage is a good way to prevent this practice, as is banning independent thought and mandating straight marriage by age 21.

32. Heterosexual marriage was invented in the Biblical book of Genesis. Written somewhere between 1500 and 500 BCE, Genesis came as a great relief to people in many cultures, such as China, who, prior to 1500 BCE, sat around waiting for the Mesopotamians to invent the family unit.

33. Gay marriage would allow more partners and children to sign onto the family breadwinner's healthcare plan. Given that 44 million Americans do not have health insurance, it is safe to say that health insurance is not an American value.

34. The possibility of getting a gay marriage might encourage some married heterosexuals to divorce and seek a gay union instead. These marriages were obviously happy and successful, and the justices who provide gay second marriages should be charged with alienation of affection.

35. Gay marriage may hurl the populace into existential crisis and cause spontaneous divorces. Divorce triggers our moral hemorrhaging, but we will keep it legal. It is easier to seek the criminalization of gay marriage than the criminalization of divorce, particularly because most of us have had a few divorces.

36. Gay marriage is tainted because some of the applicants might be divorcees marrying for the second time. We oppose remarriage, and would like to ensure that no one marries more than once; therefore we will oppose the entire institution of marriage, to ensure that no one ever marries at all. That casts the net wide enough to catch all the would-be second-timers.

37. The people have the right to demand to vote on a Massachusetts constitutional amendment against gay marriage. There is no reason for proposed amendments to go through the state Legislature first, as is constitutionally required, because the Legislature doesn't spend all that many paid hours sitting around discussing the legal ramifications on behalf of ordinary citizens who are too busy with their own jobs to figure out everything at stake.

38. The arguments for gay marriage are flawed because Democratic presidential nominee John Kerry has made inconsistent statements about gay marriage, and he is known for his consistency on other issues.

39. Married gay couples will find it easier to adopt children, who might then be bullied and teased by other children for who their parents are. This reflects poorly on the judgment of gays who adopt children with the risk that their child could possibly be teased. It does not, of course, imply anything about the responsibilities of heterosexual parents, whose children only pick up rocks for geological interest and couldn't have been listening when their parents made those comments about their neighbors.

40. Children of married gay couples might suffer bullying and teasing more often than children of unmarried gay couples, because playground bullies are sensitive to the nuances of contract law.

41. It is reasonable and fair to institute "civil unions" that provide all the rights and responsibilities of marriage, but we cannot apply the holy, mystical word "marriage" to this contract. Deriving from the Latin maritare, "marriage" evokes the dignity of the typical Roman man who engaged in licentious sex with both sexes until he reached middle age, at which time he maritared a teenage girl to bear his children.

42. According to the three proposed "compromise" Massachusetts constitutional amendments defeated by the Legislature on Feb. 11 and 12, 2004, the best way to "protect the unique relationship of [heterosexual] marriage" is to institute civil unions that are in every way identical to it.

43. God created the institution of marriage, just after he created 2.9% APR automobile financing, student loans, HMOs, and divorce.

44. We must defer to the President's opinion on gay marriage, since the Republican party was given its authority by God. As it is written: "Republican and Democrat created He them." Paul elaborated: "Democrats, submit to the Republican."

45. In San Francisco, where renegade officials have married same-sex couples for the past several weeks, experts suggest that the city may suffer an earthquake in about ten years. Geological experts, that is. But good Christians don't recognize the opinion of Earth scientists, who falsely claim the Earth is 4.5 billion years old; they get their seismic information from their preachers, who say the earthquake's coming next week.

46. Allowing same-sex marriage could increase gay public displays of affection, because marriage has historically been proven to stimulate couples' interest in sex.

47. Making civil marriage available to same-sex couples could spur the wedding industry, and businesses would sure hate to pay taxes on all that profit.

48. Straight men are opposed to gay marriage because they would prefer that gay men try to be straight and compete with them for access to women, trimming down the pool of eligible dates to make courtship more challenging and exciting.

49. The country can't afford to provide benefits for any more married couples. That's why President Bush would never consider spending $150 million on programs that encourage more straight people to get married.

50. Gay marriage is wrong because children might be led to think that it is right and that would clearly be wrong.

-___-|||

-rants-
I have nothing else to say
-rants rants-
Besides it's kind of fun to rant but just using one word...wow, I've been into a lot of roleplay.

So hard to find a picture with all of them XD mostly cause there's no kirby...
Uhm, we should get one; nah we would be killing him everytime.

And now I'm working on translating all those comics I have =D
I just know that Link is saying "Aiku-chan doko desu ka?"
Like..."Ike-chan where are you?"

Wow I have progress XD
Yeah the other one I just know the first line "Sorosoro" .......and no, no idea of what that means
Thanks for listening my rants and apparently out of subject thoughts